'What a grotesque, cliched title this post has, WB.'
No he wouldn't. He'd say I don't need to make a grand gesture of 'ending it all' etc., @toading myself or what have you. He'd say, Do what you can and try new things, but don't make it about the gesture. Just, y'know, pick a thing and do it right. Even (especially) a small thing.
Small things:
MUSIC: Instead of downloading music to order, I wish I trusted the radio more. I wish I listened to less Phish, and more stuff I've never heard before.
BOOKS: I desperately want to read more books cover to cover, and to take more chances on new things. In the immediate future I want to finish The Man in the High Castle and Fairyland, then get on with reading Aegypt for heaven's sake.
MOVIES: I haven't watched one in ages. There isn't really time. But I wish I watched great films again.
FRIENDS: Not to be seized by anxiety at the thought of writing even a short email to a friend. I would like to write to my friends all the time. To be close that way, trusting, trusted. To reach out unself-consciously. A couple of letters a week, maybe. Maybe even by hand, but let's be realistic: typing would be nice too. There's even a letter class in LaTeX! OH MAN A LETTER CLASS!
FAMILY: Better in every way.
WRITING: It hurts too much to say.
Small things.
