[Oh my god, I know this is more or less just bullshit (circa February 2008), but I seem to recall two things: (1) $20 copay every session to hear that I need to finish something and get on with life and etc. etc. etc. and he was right, very much right; (2) a friend watching me fall apart on a sidewalk awaiting a light-change and he says 'Maybe you need to finish something you've started'; well these things will bury you if you don't shovel them on top of someone else. Baby, but no one ever collected enough diamond dust to make a diamond, am I right? But it's better than regular dust. Right? Am I right?]
pretty girl looking for work
couldn't say where she's headed
rich boy from just outside new york
never let you forget it
he seemed to treat her with respect
she seemed to have half a brain
he was nicer than she'd expected
to find here - mom was surprised, too
one week they were everywhere holding hands
skating at rockefeller center
he bought her tickets to museums she'd never seen
threw snowballs in the park in early winter
late nights talking about everything
love language, a duet in creole
she thought he looked like a flower and was twice as sweet
he even paid to put her on birth control
she wrote home saying 'i think he loves me'
he wrote home saying 'great time wish you were here'
she called a friend, said 'you've gotta meet him'
he called his ex, said 'when do you visit, dear?'
when the day came she decided
'i'm ready to say i do'
he was outwardly delighted
though he didn't ask, it's true
just smiled and said 'you know i love you'
also true - but it left her feeling blue
('i love you' can be an excuse too)
when he got bored of undifferentiated kisses
he planned on saying goodbye
right before a couple weeks in europe
she could sit around, have a good cry
(and then move on like the weather)
but he found a note instead:
'i've had a premonition
of you and me waking up in ten years
you've traded me for some new possession
i'd rather not be in the position
of being any man's acquisition
nor indulgence, nor vacation
nor consolation'
he thought, 'she learned those words from me'
praised himself, gave a sneer
but she'd learned them from the last guy
he was more patient - and sounded more sincere
and left her just as far behind
another lesson, another year
